Emotions

Wrote This Poem A While Ago…

Emotions – Felix Dean

Emotions,

Why Do We All Suppress Them,

Rumour Has It That If We Open Our Mind Then They’re The Best And,

We All Make Out That We Give A Lot And Get A Lot Less Then,

We’re Scared To Give Again,

Love Only Shown To Our Closest Friends And The Ones That Stand Outside The Box It Takes A Lot,

See,

I Look Back At Memories,

Puzzles That I Thought Were Complete,

Retracing My Steps Pieces Stick To My Feet And I See They Weren’t So Secure So I Have To Make A New Path,

I Ended The Conversations But You Had The Last Laugh,

I Guess,

Maybe It’s For The Best That I Never Find Out,

About The Cocktail I Was Swimming In,

Reaching For The Surface But The Sun Light In My Eyes Is The Only Part I Saw Of You,

A Blurry Image Distorted As I Drowned Myself In My Own Thoughts About What You Might Be Doing,

How Many Other Men You Are Pursuing,

Yet,

You Tell Me You Love Me,

To Me That’s A Black Word,

One Whispered In Ears But Never Heard,

Ticked Off The Check List For The Fear Of Living In Limbo Started To Close In,

So I Lie To You And I Lie To Myself,

For Some Reason I Keep On Chasing Materialistic Wealth,

When I Know The Feelings Inside Are What It’s All About,

But I’ve Always Been The Kind To Bend The Rules,

Fools Gold Keeps On Foolin’ The Fools,

I Guess I’m A Fool For Being Fooled And I Fell For You And What I Thought You Had To Offer,

Mixed Messages,

Elaborate Sentences That Went On And Swayed From The Matter At Hand,

We Spoke Of Lavish Holidays Where We Would Connect Over White Sand,

But The Only White Sand We Saw Was So Small That It Was Measured It Grams,

We All Described Ourself As Understanding But We Never Understand,

How A Solid Foundation Falls Away & The Past Quite Often Pops Up Out Of Nowhere And Fails Future Plans,

Now I’m On Two Knees And I’ve Got My Hands On My Head,

You Look Down Deep Into My Eyes And I Said…

Fuck What Anybody Else Says Or Advise, If This Is Right Then It’ll Be, If Not Then We Take Our Own Lead, Head To The Furthest Horizon And Leave Behind The Shadows Of Me Because I’m A Dream – White Lies Constantly Whispered In Your Ear So Naturally I’m Not All That I Seem…

 

 

Peace & Power

Felix Dean – Believe In The Smoke

Felix Dean – Believe In The Smoke

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChGZCWxYaVM&feature=youtu.be

 

When I Blow Trees I Slow My Speech And Revel In Days When I Moderated The Breeze Which Resembled Perfect Peace In The East,

Still Live In The Belly Of The Beast Whisper Words Into The Air That I Want To Be Seen,

Eye Shots With A Window Breeze, A Full Spliff And A Few More Bags Of Cheese, Who Are We, Chillin’ And Free Optimistic…

Attempted A Move, And We Flew, A Crew But A Little More Smooth…

A Mellow Tune And A Mellow Mood A Light Lit And A Fire Sparked, Thought About Life And I Laughed, What Is It , Who? When? What? Why? Questions, Lies…

Cut Down Trees, Burn The Planet, But I Want To Live Forever, So What Am I Doing Fluent And True In The Path I’m Pursuing…

Ignorant Mood As A Flower Blooms, A Smile Turned To A Frown And I Frown Hands In Pocket Face To The Ground, It Wasn’t Found But They Knew…

Living The Dream But I Sleep,

Mirrored My Life In The A B C,

But Baby I See I Can Be All That You Want Me To Be And A Little Bit More,

I’ve Seen This Halways I’ve Treaded These Floors  And Unveiled My Flaws And We Saw What  We Didn’t Want To,

An Honest Guy I Told A Honest Lie I Had To,

Clenched My Fist Picked Up My Pride And Ran Through This Zoo That I Live In,

Robots As Children,

Pieces Of Puzzles Are Victims And I’m Just Looking Out Over My City Thinking What Is The Meaning,

Dreaming, Believing…

But The Dreams That I Have Aren’t In The Plan That He Had,

Frowned Upon And I Smile,

I’ve Faced This Before,

I Pray And We Talk,

And I Smoke And I Pray And I Pray That This Smoke Will Take The Pain Away Of The Unanswered Questions,

Raised In Hell But With An Angel I Dwell,

Until Old School Friends Play Kiss And Tell,

Wish Upon  A Wishing Well But I’m Not Wishing Anyone Well,

Well… Positive Outlook,

I Look Out And Cover My Eyes From The Sun,

It’s Like A One v One And I Won,

Three Sides To Me,

Triangles Of Speech,

Spectrums Of Light That Other Can’t See They Don ‘t Believe,

Smoke Rules Me As I Am Living In Everything Underneath As It Rises,

Yet Authority Is Mine,

And I Mine What’s Mine I Reap I Sow I Look I Find,

I Halted,

Perfect Not Guilty,

Not Quite Full So Still A Little Needy,

Explain Why.

Fallacy,

Your Mad At Me For Speaking Out Of Turn,

I Yearn For More Knowledge,

But If I’m Honest – Everything I Know Now Is Borrowed. He Told Me She Told Me. The Day I Follow My Ideas, Me The Director, Me As The Lead Then I’ll Become A Little Closer To Finding Out Just A Little Bit About Myself,

In This Space That We Know As Life ,

I’m A Dot On A Canvas Yet To Be Given Life,

Little Bit Stagnant, Sluggish, Inactive, Dormant,

We Want But We Can’t Afford It,

But We Flaunt With Shit That We Still Can’t Afford,

And We’re Not Happy When We Have What We Wanted Even Though We Know We Shouldn’t Have It,

The Materialistic Feel Its Real Like A Magnet It Tugs At My Spirit,

We Want To Make Change, We Made Change, We Had To Stop Change So We Could Really Make Change…

The Times Are Changing, The Time Is Changing, The Realisation That Time Is Running Out Makes Me Want To

Change Shit…

We All Take Facts As Facts, Someone Wrote Them Down Then That Is That?

 

 

Written While High, Actually It’s A Combination Of Two Pieces

Very Rough Recording On WebCam, Hopefully A Little Teaser For A Poem x Accompanying Video I Have In The Pipe Line

Feedback Is Appreciated

@FeFeDean

BALC

Peace & Power

What The Fuck Was I Thinking…

Last Night I Was Very High… And I Often Write Freestyles That I Look Back On And Think ‘What The Fuck Was I Thinking?’ – Though, There’s Usually A Line Or Two That I Look At And Think ‘What The Fuck Was I Thinking…’

So Here It Is…

 

Perfect Peace,

In The Deepest Sleep,

Is When I Think About Loved Ones Laid To Rest In Peace,

But Weirdly That Is When I Feel Most Free…

 

Peace & Power

 

@FeFeDean

Inside The Mind Of MeLo 3

So Yesterday The God God @MeLoXTRA Released His Third Mixtape In The Series Entitled ‘Inside The Mind Of MeLo 3′

Now, I’ve Been A MeLo Fan For A Long While Now. And On His Recent Tour Of Europe I Spoke With Him (and Jesse Boykins) On One Of Their Visits To The Ever Popular Brixton Village. To The Shop @United80 To Be Precise. We Spoke About Music, Future Collaborations And Releases etc.

That Was On A Thursday, And That Sunday They Both Performed At The Jazz Cafe, Camden.

I Was In Attendance, With My Trustworthy Canon D550 Snappin’ Away.

Last Time They Performed I Captured Some Great Shots That Were Shared On Both Of Their Tumblr Pages. This Time Around Was No Different… I Thought Nothing Of It.

Then, Out Of Nowhere I Randomly Woke To A DM On Twitter From MeLo Himself Asking Whether He Could Use A Picture I Took As His Cover For His Next Release. I Was GASSED And Of Course Said Yes…

So Yesterday The Tape Was Released. And My Picture Was Used.

Inside The Mind Of MeLo3

Inside The Mind Of MeLo 3

 

Download The Tape Here. The Music Is Beautiful. http://www.okayplayer.com/news/melo-x-inside-the-mind-of-melo-3-mixtape.html

 

Peace & Power

 

@FeFeDean

The Cut Magazine: Winter Warrior Party

 

 

Okay, So On Thursday The 6th Of December The Cut Magazine Is Hosting Its Second Party, WINTER WARRIOR Edition. At Bar 512, Kingsland High Road, E8 48E, Dalston, London.

If You’re Going To Go Out Just The Once This Winter Then Boy, This Is Where You Need To Be…

DJs On The Night Include;

Karnage (Roll Deep) – DOPE!

Siobhan Bell (Cherryade) – DOPE!

D’Vo – DOPE!

Mischa Mafia (NTS) – DOPE!

Ralph Hardy – DOPE!

And Of Course The Resident Cut DJ’s… FUCKIN’ DOPE!

Expect Excessive Dosages Of Hip Hop, Trap, Grime Amongst Others!

The First Party ‘The Cut’ Hosted Went Off – Check The Video Here http://vimeo.com/45931576# – And This One Is Certain To Be 10 Times Better!

WAIT – Have You Seen The Polar Bears Swag On The Flyer? He’s Got A Zoot Hangin’ Out His Mouth – You Mad!

As With Any Event, Feminine Or Not, A Large Amount Of Time Goes Into Deciding What To Wear… So Here’s What I’ll Be WearFUCK THAT – See You There!

Peace & Power

@FeFeDean

Spotlight On… The Energy

On The 23rd Of September 2012, At An Event Called ‘Steeze’ At The Honor Oak Pub In South East London, I Was Lucky Enough To Witness And Hear ‘The Energy’ Perform…

I Was Instantly Captivated By The Sounds I Was Hearing… I Found Myself In A Weird Trance Like State, Un Aware Of The Three White Girls Drinking Pints, Sitting Next To Me. The Music Took Me To A Place I Had Never Been Before…
So I Thought It My Duty To Find Out More About ‘The Energy’…
Felix Dean:Good Evening Good Evening! Thank You For Giving Me The Time Of Your Day To Make This Happen…
The Energy: That’s ok 😉
FD: Right, So ‘The Energy’ – Consists Of?
TE: Just the two of us and All life
FD:Let’s Start With The Name First & Who You Actually Are. Why Are You Called ‘The Energy’ & How Long Have You Been Together?
TE: The name came up during a birthday dinner. We are two beings making music that we love. We’ve been together many light years but on earth since January 2012. And before that working on other projects since 2008.
FD:So I Heard Your Music For The First Time A While Back, I’m Saddened That Your Sound Has Only Just Come Into My Life – I’m Struggling To Define The Art Form You’ve Mastered – Can You Elaborate On The Music You Make?
TE: Sound is the universe
FD: ‘Sound Is The Universe’ I Like That. Where Do You Take Your Inspiration From? Relatives, Musicians, Artists etc?…
TE: Nature, Emotions, everything really…..musically: Sun Ra and other cosmic wanderers.
FD: Do You Have Anything Recorded? Because All I Can Find Online Is Three Videos – Though Each Song Is Amazing, I Desire More!
TE: Yes we have tracks on our site (see below)
FD: So Any Plans For An EP/Album/Single In The Near Future?
TE: Yes we are currently working on the album….we plan to record in New York. 
FD: I’m Eagerly Anticipating The Album! Where Can People Find Out More About You & Hear Your Music In The Mean Time?
TE: www.the-energy.co.uk & @theenergysmusic on other various channels
FD: Finally, Anything Else You Want To Say?
TE: Thanks for your time, we appreciate it very much…We live on a world of light and sound.
FD: Thank YOU For Your Time Again, And I Look Forward To More Music From You In The Future! Peace & Power!

Give Me A Minute Of Your Time…

Okay, This Feels Rather Unusual Trying To Write A Piece About Myself – Basically I Have Always Loved Words…

Two Years Ago I Ruptured My Anterior Cruciate Ligament In My Left Knee – And Football, My Love, Was Taken From Me…

So, To Kill The Time I Thought I’d Start Of Tryin’ To Write Poetry – Which I Did…

And Then One Night, I Somehow Found Myself On Stage – In An Open Mic Slot – Lost For Words Scrambling For My Blackberry Where I Penned My Lyrics – With The Crowd Jeering & Sneering…

From That Day On I Knew I Had To Step Up My Levels If I Wanted To Take Music Seriously…

Although I am Yet To Record Anything Properly – Here Are Two Links To Two Of My Favorite Pieces I Perform!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_ypsFo_JOE&list=UU90-NMklvYXcGUR5aTap2sw&index=2&feature=plcp

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BVep8TzVJwU&list=UU90-NMklvYXcGUR5aTap2sw&index=1&feature=plcp

 

Watch Out For A Project From My Team @TheBalconyLDN In The Near Future

Ears Pricked…

@FeFeDean

Peace & Power

Music Photography

Okay, Idle Time To Kill & I Usually Find Myself Scrolling Through My Albums On My Computers – And I Frequently Find Pictures Of Musical Artists I Have Captured In The Moment – So, I’m Just Goin’ To Post A Wide Range Of Photographs I’ve Taken Over The Years At Various Shows!

Elzhi, Formerly Of Slum Village – At Jazz Cafe

Rejjie Snow, At The Amersham Arms

Lady Leshurr, At Converse Block Party

Olamide Odubuyi, At The Honor Oak

Jesse Boykins, At Jazz Cafe

Nipsey Hussle, At XOYO

Cynikal, At The Queen Of Hoxton

Wilson Sings, At The Queen Of Hoxton

Axel, At Bussey Buildings

Theophilus London, At XOYO

Nas & Damien Marley, At… I Forgot Ha

Asher Roth, At Jazz Cafe

And There’s A Very Limited Selection Of Photos I’ve Taken!

BxG

The Balcony LDN

Peace & Power

@FeFeDean

Spotlight On… Chris Searle

A While Back At An Event Organised By Lacoste I Was Lucky Enough To Meet The Young Gentleman I Am About To Introduce To You…

Spotlight On… Chris Searle, 18 Years Old

(Interviewer FD – Felix Dean, Interviewee CS – Chris Searle)

FD: Good Afternoon, Kind Sir – As Agreed, Quick Questions About You… So, What Is Your Profession?

CS: Good Afternoon To You Too, I’m A Freelance Photographer For ID Magazine Online, Hypebeast, Haddon PR And ThreadsTV…

FD: Right Firstly, I Want Five Words & No More! That Describe You?

CS: Crazy, Ambitious, Passionate, Loud, Deep.

FD: Interesting, So Photography, What’s Your First Experience Of Dealing With A Camera?

CS: Literally I Did Art For Five Years In High School And Decided That I Wanted To Do Something Similar Along Those Lines. Picked Up The Book And Decided Sod It Why Not Photography. Let’s Do This.

FD: What Equipment Are You Dealing With At The Moment Then?

CS: Nikon D7000, Nikon f80, Olympus OM10.

FD: You’ve Got ALL This Equipment But What Have You Done With It? Shot Anyone People Reading The May Know About? Elaborate Please…

CS: It Started When I Was Doing A Internship With Dope Chef, A Street Wear Brand Based In London. I Started Doing Photography For Them And Attending Events. I Was There For Around Two Months. I Then Focused On My Last Year Of College Getting A High Grade. Then When I Finished I’ve Been Contacting People And Shooting With Hypebeast, My First Job With Them Was ‘London Collections’ – The Best Experience I’ve Had In My Photography Life So Far.
Then Along The Way I’ve Worked With ID online, Shooting The Likes Of The Vaccines, Will-i-am And With Adidas….. There’s Lots More To Tell, But Check Out The Links ; Wait A Few Months And You Will Hear About Me Everywhere *Cocky Laugh & Smile*.

FD: Okay Okay, Big Talk Now – Care To Show Us Three Of The Best Photos You’ve Ever Taken & Tell Me Why?

CS: Oh Wow, Three Best Photos….. Damn *Laughs*. They Get Better Every Shoot Really. Like When It Comes To Working With Big People In The Music And Art Industry; You’re Constantly Learning. The Photos Below Will Be My Best Photos To Date So Far Each Having A Little Meaning To Me.

FD: What Inspires Your Photos? I Take Some But They’re Very ‘In The Moment’ Do You Approach Every Photo Differently?

CS: I’ve Got A Similar Style Throughout My Photos – But Approach Each Differently, Situation Dependent, Only Been Doing This For Two Years & I’m High Off Life Right No …. Documentary, Street Fashion, Lifestyle, Editorial, Skate Photography Is A Big Part Of Me.
Of Course Portraits Show A Lot In My Portfolio.
At This Moment In Time I’m Shooting Every Day. And If I’m Not I’m Editing. Without fail. Passion, Lifestyle, Hobby work.

FD: Random, But I Like The Shirt You’re Wearing Today, You Seem To Have A Unique Style About You? 

CS: My Floral Ralph Lauren shirt… That’s My Favourite Shirt At The Moment. Clashing And Mixing The Maddest Idea Together Sums Me up Really. Friends, Celebs, Street, Models All A Mix Of Where My Inspiration Comes From!

FD: Dope, Where Can The Readers Find Our More About You?

CS: Check My Three Sites, All Regularly Updated!

Chrissearlesphotography.tumblr.com
facebook.com/chrissearlesphotography
chrissearlesphotography.com

FD: Finally, Any Last Shout Outs?…

CS: Big shout To: Hypebeast, ID Online, Threads Tv, Haddon PR,
My Skate Crew, Standard Apparel. Santiago. Lost Generation. FeFe Dean, Ace For The Write Up!!! Peace Out….

FD: Thank You For Your Time Chris – I Admire Your Passion & Drive For You To Succeed – I’m Sure Everyone Agrees That It’s Empowering To See Someone Doing What They Love! See You Soon Sir!