The Metro Pad

Every Day Millions (Don’t Quote Me On That) Read The Metro Newspaper…

What A Load Of Fucking Shit There Is In There!

So On A 19 Minute Journey From Clapham Junction To Peckham Rye I Decided To Liven Up My Copy




















Wrote This Poem A While Ago…

Emotions – Felix Dean


Why Do We All Suppress Them,

Rumour Has It That If We Open Our Mind Then They’re The Best And,

We All Make Out That We Give A Lot And Get A Lot Less Then,

We’re Scared To Give Again,

Love Only Shown To Our Closest Friends And The Ones That Stand Outside The Box It Takes A Lot,


I Look Back At Memories,

Puzzles That I Thought Were Complete,

Retracing My Steps Pieces Stick To My Feet And I See They Weren’t So Secure So I Have To Make A New Path,

I Ended The Conversations But You Had The Last Laugh,

I Guess,

Maybe It’s For The Best That I Never Find Out,

About The Cocktail I Was Swimming In,

Reaching For The Surface But The Sun Light In My Eyes Is The Only Part I Saw Of You,

A Blurry Image Distorted As I Drowned Myself In My Own Thoughts About What You Might Be Doing,

How Many Other Men You Are Pursuing,


You Tell Me You Love Me,

To Me That’s A Black Word,

One Whispered In Ears But Never Heard,

Ticked Off The Check List For The Fear Of Living In Limbo Started To Close In,

So I Lie To You And I Lie To Myself,

For Some Reason I Keep On Chasing Materialistic Wealth,

When I Know The Feelings Inside Are What It’s All About,

But I’ve Always Been The Kind To Bend The Rules,

Fools Gold Keeps On Foolin’ The Fools,

I Guess I’m A Fool For Being Fooled And I Fell For You And What I Thought You Had To Offer,

Mixed Messages,

Elaborate Sentences That Went On And Swayed From The Matter At Hand,

We Spoke Of Lavish Holidays Where We Would Connect Over White Sand,

But The Only White Sand We Saw Was So Small That It Was Measured It Grams,

We All Described Ourself As Understanding But We Never Understand,

How A Solid Foundation Falls Away & The Past Quite Often Pops Up Out Of Nowhere And Fails Future Plans,

Now I’m On Two Knees And I’ve Got My Hands On My Head,

You Look Down Deep Into My Eyes And I Said…

Fuck What Anybody Else Says Or Advise, If This Is Right Then It’ll Be, If Not Then We Take Our Own Lead, Head To The Furthest Horizon And Leave Behind The Shadows Of Me Because I’m A Dream – White Lies Constantly Whispered In Your Ear So Naturally I’m Not All That I Seem…



Peace & Power

Felix Dean – Believe In The Smoke

Felix Dean – Believe In The Smoke


When I Blow Trees I Slow My Speech And Revel In Days When I Moderated The Breeze Which Resembled Perfect Peace In The East,

Still Live In The Belly Of The Beast Whisper Words Into The Air That I Want To Be Seen,

Eye Shots With A Window Breeze, A Full Spliff And A Few More Bags Of Cheese, Who Are We, Chillin’ And Free Optimistic…

Attempted A Move, And We Flew, A Crew But A Little More Smooth…

A Mellow Tune And A Mellow Mood A Light Lit And A Fire Sparked, Thought About Life And I Laughed, What Is It , Who? When? What? Why? Questions, Lies…

Cut Down Trees, Burn The Planet, But I Want To Live Forever, So What Am I Doing Fluent And True In The Path I’m Pursuing…

Ignorant Mood As A Flower Blooms, A Smile Turned To A Frown And I Frown Hands In Pocket Face To The Ground, It Wasn’t Found But They Knew…

Living The Dream But I Sleep,

Mirrored My Life In The A B C,

But Baby I See I Can Be All That You Want Me To Be And A Little Bit More,

I’ve Seen This Halways I’ve Treaded These Floors  And Unveiled My Flaws And We Saw What  We Didn’t Want To,

An Honest Guy I Told A Honest Lie I Had To,

Clenched My Fist Picked Up My Pride And Ran Through This Zoo That I Live In,

Robots As Children,

Pieces Of Puzzles Are Victims And I’m Just Looking Out Over My City Thinking What Is The Meaning,

Dreaming, Believing…

But The Dreams That I Have Aren’t In The Plan That He Had,

Frowned Upon And I Smile,

I’ve Faced This Before,

I Pray And We Talk,

And I Smoke And I Pray And I Pray That This Smoke Will Take The Pain Away Of The Unanswered Questions,

Raised In Hell But With An Angel I Dwell,

Until Old School Friends Play Kiss And Tell,

Wish Upon  A Wishing Well But I’m Not Wishing Anyone Well,

Well… Positive Outlook,

I Look Out And Cover My Eyes From The Sun,

It’s Like A One v One And I Won,

Three Sides To Me,

Triangles Of Speech,

Spectrums Of Light That Other Can’t See They Don ‘t Believe,

Smoke Rules Me As I Am Living In Everything Underneath As It Rises,

Yet Authority Is Mine,

And I Mine What’s Mine I Reap I Sow I Look I Find,

I Halted,

Perfect Not Guilty,

Not Quite Full So Still A Little Needy,

Explain Why.


Your Mad At Me For Speaking Out Of Turn,

I Yearn For More Knowledge,

But If I’m Honest – Everything I Know Now Is Borrowed. He Told Me She Told Me. The Day I Follow My Ideas, Me The Director, Me As The Lead Then I’ll Become A Little Closer To Finding Out Just A Little Bit About Myself,

In This Space That We Know As Life ,

I’m A Dot On A Canvas Yet To Be Given Life,

Little Bit Stagnant, Sluggish, Inactive, Dormant,

We Want But We Can’t Afford It,

But We Flaunt With Shit That We Still Can’t Afford,

And We’re Not Happy When We Have What We Wanted Even Though We Know We Shouldn’t Have It,

The Materialistic Feel Its Real Like A Magnet It Tugs At My Spirit,

We Want To Make Change, We Made Change, We Had To Stop Change So We Could Really Make Change…

The Times Are Changing, The Time Is Changing, The Realisation That Time Is Running Out Makes Me Want To

Change Shit…

We All Take Facts As Facts, Someone Wrote Them Down Then That Is That?



Written While High, Actually It’s A Combination Of Two Pieces

Very Rough Recording On WebCam, Hopefully A Little Teaser For A Poem x Accompanying Video I Have In The Pipe Line

Feedback Is Appreciated



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What The Fuck Was I Thinking…

Last Night I Was Very High… And I Often Write Freestyles That I Look Back On And Think ‘What The Fuck Was I Thinking?’ – Though, There’s Usually A Line Or Two That I Look At And Think ‘What The Fuck Was I Thinking…’

So Here It Is…


Perfect Peace,

In The Deepest Sleep,

Is When I Think About Loved Ones Laid To Rest In Peace,

But Weirdly That Is When I Feel Most Free…


Peace & Power



Past Feelings

Closer To Death Than I Have Ever Been,

Feeling Freer Than I Have Ever Felt,

It’s The Feeling That One Feels When The Darkness Closes In,

And The Dreams About Death Feel A Little Closer,

Ghosts Of The Past Pop Up And The Feelings Push You Over,

What You Have Never Felt Becomes Acquainted With Your Soul With One Piercing Glare From The Dark Eyes Of A Dragon,

The Thoughts You Felt Become Closer Than You Could Ever Imagine,

Skulls Of The Underworld Are Within Reach Of Your Hands,

Pictured The World In Black And White,

The Black Closed In As You Questioned Life And You Wondering Why It Felt So Weird Was Nothing More Than A Wisp Of Smoke That Couldn’t Be Seen,

No Control,







And I Lay…

Feeling A Past Feeling.




Peace & Power

Give Me A Minute Of Your Time…

Okay, This Feels Rather Unusual Trying To Write A Piece About Myself – Basically I Have Always Loved Words…

Two Years Ago I Ruptured My Anterior Cruciate Ligament In My Left Knee – And Football, My Love, Was Taken From Me…

So, To Kill The Time I Thought I’d Start Of Tryin’ To Write Poetry – Which I Did…

And Then One Night, I Somehow Found Myself On Stage – In An Open Mic Slot – Lost For Words Scrambling For My Blackberry Where I Penned My Lyrics – With The Crowd Jeering & Sneering…

From That Day On I Knew I Had To Step Up My Levels If I Wanted To Take Music Seriously…

Although I am Yet To Record Anything Properly – Here Are Two Links To Two Of My Favorite Pieces I Perform!


Watch Out For A Project From My Team @TheBalconyLDN In The Near Future

Ears Pricked…


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Who Am I? What Are We?

So… As The First Post Of ‘LeaningOverTheBalcony’ An Introduction To Who Is Hittin’ You With The Dope Shit On Fashion, Music & … Well, Life In General Seems Necessary…

What Us Inspires Us Both Most, As Mentioned Above, Is Music & Fashion… Along With Women… Both Of Us Make Our Own Music & Throughout This Blog Will Be Showcasing Our Talents & Our Wide Array Of Attire…

Me. @FeFeDean If Any Of You Are On Twitter…

I’m – ‘A Hipster Hating, Black Chick Taking, White Boy But I’m Far From You Favorite’ – My Own Lyric, Thought Of While Freestyling On The 37 Bus To Work This Morning – Fuck A Hipster Basically, I Really Am Not One For Following Trends etc…  I Love Black Women. I Have Never Been In A Relationship With A White Girl…They Say “Once You Go Bl” NO – None Of Those Corny Lines Either…  And Last But Not Least, I’m Far From Your Favorite BUT Maybe One Day I Will Be…

I Believe That The Wind Is Alive & The Moon Is Sleepin’ On Those Star Filled Nights” – The First Line From A Poem I Wrote Entitled ‘I Believe’ – (I’m Sure I Will Post In Full At Some Point) – This Basically Sums Up My View On The World & People – There Is Always More Than Meets The Eye – I Believe In, A, God – But, Controversially, Also Life Without One Can Be Equally As Fulfilling. It’s Hard Sometimes To See How The Words In The Bible Can Be So Definite, When Written Such A long Time Ago & By A Man. I Believe Everyone Can Have Their Own God.

What The Fuck Is A Crime Against Fashion?” – A Friend Once Asked Me This… And I Didn’t Know What To Say (Apart From T90’s With Jeans, Fugggg Dahhhh)! Personally, What You Wear Is A Way Of Expressing Yourself; Not All The Time Because We All Have Those Days Of Not Givin’ A Hoot What We Wear – But Usually So… However It Doesn’t And Shouldn’t Define You – Wearing A Certain Garment Doesn’t Immediately Put You Into A Category, Hipster, Chav, Indie Kid, Grunger etc etc – As The Blog Develops You Will Get An Insight Into My Wardrobe So Don’t Worry… Bet I Got That Vintage Tommy Hilfiger Piece Though!

Ever Wondered What It Feels Like, To Wake Up And Do Whatever You Feel Like‘ – Word To Sir Michael Rocks For This One… Never Has A Line Defined My Life So Much. I Dream Of Being Able To Wake Up & Do Whatever I Feel Like, Whatever The Fuckin’ Fuck I Feel Like – You Feel Me? – With The People That I Love & Care About… I’m The Kind Of Guy That Brings Friends Into Anything I Do – While I’m At It Shout Out To My Brothers – @4lchemist – @JunaCosmos – @RashidBabiker And @OneTrueShogun – More About The Latter Three Once We’ve Finished Cookin’ In The Kitchen…

And That’s A Quick Piece About Myself, Now I’ll Pass You Over To The Best Card In The Deck…

*Looks At Watch*

Right, So This Is A Partial Introduction To My Friend, He’s Usually Late…

His Introductory Piece Will Be Published At A Later Date…